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Sleep Dep and Kid Ponderings...

Today is a better day than yesterday was. I imagine that my late nights have started to catch up with me. I absolutely cannot fall asleep until I’m about ready to drop into bed. If I attempt to do so, I toss and turn all night, which gets me no sleep or rest at all. Last night, I was ready for bed by 9pm, which is almost unheard of for me. Usually it’s 12am – 12:30 am. But, my schedule has changed and as much as I wanted it to change completely, it hasn’t. I have to get up at an ungodly 6:30 am now in order to be awake enough and functional at work since work hours changed.

I didn’t go to sleep at 9. I stayed up long enough to watch Eureka. Good show. Cop guy is a hottie. Once Eureka was over, I went to sleep at 10.

My sister Susan called me at 10:30 to let me know she was having a cookout on Saturday, because her daughter was home for the week and they wanted to get everyone together before Melissa went back to South Carolina for her sophomore year of school.

It’s hard to imagine that Melissa S. (as opposed to my other niece Melissa Y.) is old enough to be in college, much less a sophomore in college. I’m only 32. She’s the baby of all of my 9 nieces and nephews combined. I will cry when she gets married and starts to have kids. I’m still not at that point in my life, and almost all the others are doing that with themselves at the moment. I’m a great aunt of… er… Trisha – 3 Kids, Melissa Y. – 2 Kids, Perry – 3 Kids, Angel – 3 Kids = 11 kids. CRY!

Alright, so I’m already crying over that. I’m actually at a stage in my life where I think I’m ready to have children. I’m not opposed to it anymore. I’ve hit the boundary where I finally recognize that I’m no longer too young to have kids, which I think is a point everyone reaches, but they have to come to it in their own time. Yes, yes, this means I start wondering what it’ll be like to be a mother. But, sadly, that won’t happen still yet for a long while to come. But, it’s good to know, deep down, that I’m no longer opposed to the prospect.

Just… don’t expect me to like other people’s kids :)

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rathess
Aug. 9th, 2006 04:09 pm (UTC)
Good luck Lisa, having kids is a challenge (as you know adelinfdm and I have three) but they are also rewarding.
usurpingivylj
Aug. 9th, 2006 04:50 pm (UTC)
*HUGS*
Hey girl - don't despair too much. I'm ready to have kids now, too, and technically, I'm late when it comes to my family by about three years. My younger sister already has a beautiful baby boy, and I'm way jealous. Although I would never, ever advocate it, catch me online and I'll give you a website that you may (?) be interested in. At least for the thought value :) *HUGS* ~Claire
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