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Sudden Realization...

And, now we come to what I think will be my final post, at least for a few hours if not for the day.

It just struck me today that it’s July. I mean, I /knew/ it was July, but it really hit home for me today. July is the hated, cursed, evil month for me, and will always be that thing for me. What’s weird is that it didn’t even hit me on Sunday when I was talking about that specific day with a friend and how long it’s been since she passed away.

Today, it hit. I pretty much see her everywhere right now. I imagine that’s mostly because I’m stuck at work where I can’t be sufficiently distracted. Let’s face it, work stuff here offers nothing to stimulate my mind or challenge me, and those challenges I have been given I’ve overcome pretty easily. So, it’s pretty much rote monotony with lots of free time to let my mind wander. That’s a bad combination for this month.

It'll be 11 years on the 21st.

So, please let July go by with a blink of an eye. K? Thanx. Bye.

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gwyndyn
Jul. 3rd, 2007 04:37 pm (UTC)
I think it's a good thing that it didn't really hit you until now. It shows that you are really being able to heal. I will send some good thoughts your way and hope that you will be able to find a way to spend this month remembering the good things about her so that it doesn't hurt so much. *snug*
stephdray
Jul. 5th, 2007 09:06 pm (UTC)
It's the 5th. It took you a while for it to hit you. This is progress. Next year, I hope it's the 10th, and so on ;)
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