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Talking Does Not Help....

Last night Nancy asked if talking about my mother would help. It doesn’t. Not really. Nor does looking at her picture. However, last night I obliged Nancy by showing her the one picture I keep with me always – the one of her and I standing in front of Edinburg Castle in Scotland. Whenever talking about my mother, or looking at her picture, I get teary eyed and misty, and then depressed. I miss her sorely, even now, and that feeling really is not something anyone can really understand unless they lost a parent themselves.

Nancy at least understands a little bit. She lost her brother a few years ago. But even with someone who does understand, talking about such things is just plain hard. I’ll keep my memories to myself, thanks.

I realize her intentions were good. She was warned I'd be mopey and out of sorts this weekend. Unfortunately, however well intentioned she was, my week has been offset. I was not prepared to deal with anything before this weekend and now, after showing her the picture, I'm dealing with stuff far too soon.

Must. Find. Distractions.

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bludiscus
Jul. 18th, 2007 02:55 pm (UTC)
*hug*
seattlesparks
Jul. 18th, 2007 04:11 pm (UTC)
*hug* I can't say I fully understand, but over the past 9 months or so it's become a fear I live with. So you have my sympathies, and if there's any way I can help offer distraction, just ask.
surubee
Jul. 18th, 2007 05:30 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Unfortunately, I can relate all too well. :(
Hang in there. July will be over soon.
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nynrose
Jul. 19th, 2007 11:05 pm (UTC)
She's only been to Michigan and Florida, other than Scotland. It was her first and only overseas trip. I don't count her trip to Mexico because she was there for cancer treatment, not really a vacation. She didn't go far beyond the hospital that she was at.
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