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Talking Does Not Help....

Last night Nancy asked if talking about my mother would help. It doesn’t. Not really. Nor does looking at her picture. However, last night I obliged Nancy by showing her the one picture I keep with me always – the one of her and I standing in front of Edinburg Castle in Scotland. Whenever talking about my mother, or looking at her picture, I get teary eyed and misty, and then depressed. I miss her sorely, even now, and that feeling really is not something anyone can really understand unless they lost a parent themselves.

Nancy at least understands a little bit. She lost her brother a few years ago. But even with someone who does understand, talking about such things is just plain hard. I’ll keep my memories to myself, thanks.

I realize her intentions were good. She was warned I'd be mopey and out of sorts this weekend. Unfortunately, however well intentioned she was, my week has been offset. I was not prepared to deal with anything before this weekend and now, after showing her the picture, I'm dealing with stuff far too soon.

Must. Find. Distractions.

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bludiscus
Jul. 18th, 2007 02:55 pm (UTC)
*hug*
seattlesparks
Jul. 18th, 2007 04:11 pm (UTC)
*hug* I can't say I fully understand, but over the past 9 months or so it's become a fear I live with. So you have my sympathies, and if there's any way I can help offer distraction, just ask.
surubee
Jul. 18th, 2007 05:30 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Unfortunately, I can relate all too well. :(
Hang in there. July will be over soon.
stephdray
Jul. 19th, 2007 07:07 pm (UTC)
It's interesting that that's the picture you keep with you. It sounds like your mom liked to see new places in the world, and that you're going to follow in her footsteps.
nynrose
Jul. 19th, 2007 11:05 pm (UTC)
She's only been to Michigan and Florida, other than Scotland. It was her first and only overseas trip. I don't count her trip to Mexico because she was there for cancer treatment, not really a vacation. She didn't go far beyond the hospital that she was at.
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