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Goodbye 2007…!

Don’t let the door slam you too hard. Er… that was my outside voice, wasn’t it?

For the large majority of the year, 2007 sucked, both for personal and game related reasons. The year started out with me being in a curled up ball of tears, and a feeling of absolute dread and misery washing over me. Those I spent the New Year celebration with were concerned, but it wasn’t something I could entirely explain. It’s still not something I can explain. I just knew that year was going to be absolutely dreadful, and it was; not just for myself, but for many of my friends as well. In retrospect, my stuff, compared to others, looks small, but for me it seemed large.

In 2007:

• Things happened at the beginning of the year on FiranMUX that lead to the largest burnout I’ve felt in ages; however that is now clearing up, thanks to some help from the staff, and remembering to take some time for myself and to de-stress. Course, it didn’t help when winter months hit and got all dark and gloomy, and then normal malaise and holiday madness set in.

• Some friends got seriously ill, while others became emotionally scarred. And, still more, one friend was lost, as she showed her true colors; colors that had been suspected, but overlooked in an attempt to give her a chance to prove those suspicions wrong. Instead, her actions caused me to suspect everything she’s ever told me, and in the end, while not an easy decision to make, I chose to end the relationship. And, lastly, one friend, and a staff member from Cuendillar, passed away, after a several year battle to determine and fix what was wrong with her.

• My housemate started to experience serious financial hardship, due to the fraudulent actions of a company that she was working with.

• For me, the hives were, by far, the worst and scariest thing I’d ever had to deal with, though they seem to be managed right now, and compared to some things I know others had to go through last year, they seem small in comparison as something to have to deal with.

For all the bad there was in 2007, there was also some good:

• I started to come out of my carefully constructed tortoise shell and allow some people to get closer to me. I now have some of the closest relationships I’ve ever had with anyone, and count myself among the lucky few to have the extended family that I have; the family that you choose.

• I allowed myself to take some time to meet aerlorn, who I’ve known for ages, as an acquaintance from my own game, and enjoyed getting to know him a bit better after chatting with him there all these years.

• I got to go on a wonderful cruise with equally wonderful people: stephdray, adamdray, bluekitsune, michaelmauzey and dpassmor. We met some amazing people who were as much geeks at heart as we were, and were a blast to hang out with throughout our trip. We got to see some amazing places, walk on Mayan Ruins, pet dolphins and get kisses from them, swim in underground rivers and enjoy a wonderful day at a beach that hosted one of the world’s largest barrier reefs. I got to see ocean side sunsets that pass with the blink of an eye, and enjoy high tea while listening to a stringed quartet. I was pampered and served, and had nearly every need seen to. All I can think right now is: WHY AM I NOT STILL DOWN THERE!?!

• Despite getting sick at Christmas time, I made every effort to be with the family that I could on Christmas Day. For those that don’t know me, I’m generally a recluse in large crowds, and especially have been on holidays ever since my mother has passed away. I’m starting to come out of that shell as well, and it felt nice to be a larger part of the family again. This year, there was the feeling of “home and holidays” that we’ve been missing since she’s been gone, and it’s about time that it’s come back!

All I can say is that I am glad that 2007 is over. That chapter is put behind me, and I won’t look back at it again – except for the good things that occurred. I’ll look to the future, and thank the Gods every day that 2008 did not start out as ominously as 2007. Oh no. I feel there will be good things for 2008 to come. Thus far, it is a feeling that has strongly clung to me, and one that I merrily welcome.


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Jan. 9th, 2008 05:36 pm (UTC)
Just like with the dread I felt starting last year, I really can’t explain why I think this year will be better, but I went into NYE already feeling it…. no, rather.… knowing it. I’m not a particularly positive person. Because life has me a bunch of things to be jaded about over the years, I’m skeptical about everything, and tend more towards the negative than the positive, especially when it has to do with anything good for me. I’m not sure if it’s because of wide-eyed optimism, which I don’t ever have, or what, but I’m going to bask in the feeling that things will be good this year as along as I can, and let it affect me however it will.
Jan. 10th, 2008 06:12 am (UTC)
Let's trade years then...2007 was so wonderful and 2008 has started off terrible...so you can have my wonderful type year from last year :)
Jan. 10th, 2008 12:43 pm (UTC)
*hugs tight*

If I could trade places and take care of the things you've had to, I would in a heartbeat. I cross every finger and every toe that things will turn out much better for you this year.
Jan. 13th, 2008 03:06 am (UTC)
I truly hope that 2008 is a wonderful year for you, dear. *hugs*
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