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Death Day Arrives - Memories of Mom

Death Day has arrived. It's hard to imagine that it's been 14 years since my mother passed. It's still fresh in my mind, and seems like yesterday; though the intense feelings of loss and pain of when it happened are not there as much any more. That doesn't mean I don't still get emotional. I do. Especially this time around. But, at the same time, I'm not curling up in a ball wishing for the world to go away. Or, at least, not so much anymore.

Today, I plan to go to a movie, somewhere, sometime. She enjoyed movies, and we often went together. My most memorable moment going with her to the movies was when we went to go see Rambo III. There were some suspicious figures in the movie theatre, that kept coming in and out, looking like they were casing the joint. Both mom and I were concerned, so rather than staying to watch Rambo III, we hopped theatres and went to see Poltergiest III instead. (It was the year of IIIs then.)

For those of you following on Facebook, our last movie together was Mission Impossible II. While it was a mediocre movie, we both seemed to enjoy it, and I think she enjoyed getting out of the house for a time; though it was the last time that she got out of the house ever for something enjoyable.

There are, of course, other memorable moments. The times we spent together working on crafts. She tried to teach me how to knit and sew, but I was hopeless then. About 7, I could cast on just fine, or make a chain just fine, but when it came to making that dreaded 2nd or even 3rd row, I couldn't quite grasp how to do that just right without messing things up.

She taught me how to macreme (though I've long since forgotten how) and to quilt. Though, her quilts were much simpler than the one I've chosen to do myself for a first quilt. They were designs drawn onto white cloth, hand stitched with several french knots. I still have my first attempt at quilting with her, with the designs we drew onto the cloth in my crafting bin.

We worked with ceramics together; not creating them in a kiln, but painting the designs on the completed works. And, beyond that, we also completed paint by number paintings together, each of us with our own set of paints, and portraits to complete, favoring horses or large cats, or bears, or any number of animal scenes.

And, we often enjoyed a good game of cards; Go Fish, Rummy 500 (with 2s wild), Crazy Eights, various versions of group Solitaire, or we sometimes each had our own deck of cards and just played Solitaire together, but separately. There were likely other card games too, that have passed from my memory.

And, let's never forget a good game of Yahtzee, with the clinking and the rattling of the dice against the kitchen table. And Milbourne. Another card game, but using the Milbourne set by Hasbro.

What I wouldn't give for even a couple of hours of time to do any of this stuff with her again. She is missed dearly, and sorely.


Love you mom. And, may you always have peace and happiness where ever you are; in this life or your next.



( 3 comments — Leave a comment )
Jul. 21st, 2010 04:10 pm (UTC)
We share parent death...days. :/ I hope you find some comfort in your day! This is our first one...I think I did most my crying last night.
Jul. 22nd, 2010 01:23 am (UTC)
I would like to say that the pain goes away. The best that I can offer is that it never goes away, but it does get easier over time. This year has been easier than most years for me, however there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about her in some way. She is a person who had a huge influential impact on my life, and that's not something a person can just forget.

I hope, in time, things get easier for you as well. In the meantime, we can both be a member of the July Sucks club. Yes?
Jul. 24th, 2010 02:14 am (UTC)
**Hugs tight** I know there is NOTHING I can say to make the day better. I hope that you cherish your memories and do what you do to the best of your ability.
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