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Miss Anti-Social

According to my father, I am anti-social. All I do all day is sit in front of the computer and nothing else. He expressed this on Saturday when we went to the Horse World Expo, but then let it drop, and got real defensive when I brought it up at dinner, saying he never said that. My social life is a mystery to my father. He doesn't see it, so it doesn't exist.

I think this last year I've been more social than I've ever been in my lifetime, save for the events I did in college, and that's only because I could walk down the path and there was something there. However, I am finding myself slipping back into old patterns. Keeping to myself at home and hardly ever going out. Part of that has to do with the no money factor and having to be more careful about what things I do. The other part I'm not so sure about.

Lately, I've been lamenting over the fact that I have no one single person that I can just pick up the phone, call and talk to about things. I've never had that really, with the exception of my mother, so why this should bother me now I'm not so sure. But it does. It makes for being a very lonely person. I know I have plenty of friends I could probably do that with, but I'm not close enough with any of them that I actually would. Then again, half the time the things I have to say are trivial and not worth mentioning, but then I tend to bottle all the little things up until they explode. So, I'm sorta just stuck, without an outlet and letting things get to that point. Bleh.

So, maybe I am anti-social?

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aninkling
Mar. 1st, 2005 01:13 am (UTC)
Totally understand. Part of the reason I miss Bek so much is that she was one of the few people in my life I could do that with. It's hard when you have people you can hang out with, but that aren't close.
jacobine
Mar. 1st, 2005 02:13 am (UTC)
I understand that -- I'm really rather the same way. I don't think I really have a single person in town I can pick up the phone to just talk to. (Not many to go out with in town either).

Making friends when you're an adult is hard, and it's doubly so when you're shy or introverted. I don't think it's an antisocial thing, necessarily.
kmacmahon
Mar. 1st, 2005 01:28 pm (UTC)
My mother totally said the same thing when I used to be on the Imagination Network. So I showed her how to go online and access the card games. Within a year she married someone she met there. Go figure.
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