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Rambling On...

While writing this post I didn't realize just how rambly I'd get. It's really just a bunch of random thoughts thrown together, but given the way I've been feeling for a long while I needed to just... well... ramble thoughtlessly. And so, I have.

I've had this unshakable case of the blahs ever since I've gotten sick. That along with my illness has been something that's really been wearing on me. I did manage to go to the Doctor last Thursday and she gave me some allergy medication for my cough. She seems to think that'll help, since according to her my lungs are clear. The congestion that I've been having has more or less been in my throat anyway. She gave me Singulair to try and as much as I hate to admit it, it's been working pretty well. I did try to go off of it for a day and I made it through a whole day until last night when I got all coughy again. I hate to admit it, but I think I may have developed spring allergies, and that sucks. Spring is my favorite season of the whole year and I'd hate for that to change.

Spring is the season that I'm most motivated to go out and just do things in general. I've been feeling rather stir crazy, like I have cabin fever or something along those lines. I've been wanting to go out and do stuff, but at the same time that desire just isn't there. The biggest thing I want to do is to find a horse farm and go riding. It's been a long, long time since I've ridden, or since I've had a strong desire to ride. There's nothing like getting on a horse and just going off and.... going, nor the comaraderie that you share with the horse when you go off. Of course, I won't have that sort of freedom with a horse farm... but just going out and riding the trails would be satisfactory enough for me, I think. I've stayed away from articles and newspapers where horses for sale are advertised. I'm afraid that now that I have money again I just might be too tempted to buy a horse, which would far outweigh any desire to get a new computer.

Thinking back, I was happiest the years that I had Whinney. She was my part Morgan, part Quarterhorse mare. She was sorrel in color and had a white star and snips on three of her feet. She was my Christmas gift for Christmas of 1989. We clicked when we first met each other. I was at a horse farm in Ridgely, MD and the owner told my father he had a horse that he wanted me to try out. I had no idea it was her and so when I was going through the barn I'd just randomly walked up to one of the horses and there she was. She was the first and only horse that I tried. I knew right away that I wanted her and she worked so well with me that it seemed we were made for each other. Ever since that time and up until her death, we were perfect partners. What's more, I could absolutely trust her - as far as a person can really trust any horse - with my younger nieces and nephews. I could never ride them double, because she hated that, but I could put them up on her back, one at a time, go inside the house, and stay there for awhile, and come back, and she'd still be out there plugging along at a walk. She'd never go more than that without me out there. She also knew who the experienced riders are. My father was not and he had trouble taking her anywhere off of the property without me there to help him. Which, in retrospect, that was very good.

The other thing I'm tempted to do is get a kitten or two kittens. I really want pets and feel somewhat lost without them. I've always had pets in my life, whether it be baby runt pigs that I feed at the age of four, kittens and cats that I've had at all ages, ponies and horses that I've been exposed to all of my life, dogs which I only somewhat like, or birds - more specifically parakeets. I want warm and cuddly pets though so for me that means kittens/cats. I think, however, that I'm going to have to wait until after FiranCon to pick out a kitty or a pair of kitties. I don't want them to be alone for an entire weekend. Or, maybe I'll just go ahead and do it now. I think part of the deciding factor will be whether or not I can negotiate for a lower rent in my apartment by getting a long term lease. We'll see. The thought of having warm cuddly animals around the house is certainly an uplifting one. It means I won't be totally alone anymore and will have someone to babble at, even if they can't answer back. Pets are the constant friends that will never, ever betray you, no matter what.

I don't have much to update about myself personally. There's really not much to tell. Nothing interesting is going on in my life currently. At least, I don't think there is. It's just a myriad of same old, same old. During the week I wake up, get ready, go to work, pine for the end of the work day, go home, get on the net, talk to a few people, maybe eat or maybe forget to eat, realize it's almost midnight, then go to bed. Wash, rinse, repeat. During the week I hope that somehow I manage to find something even remotely interesting for me to do during the weekend to get out of the apartment. Sometimes that's just going going to the movies and sometimes that's just visiting friends and hanging out. On most occassions, though, I fail in that goal and that helps in leading to the general stir craziness I've been feeling lately.

While I don't think I'm much suited for it, I've been thinking more and more that maybe I want to take another class in trapezeing. It's at least something different, unique and fun to do. The thing is I worry about most is that I'm not physically suited for it. Last time I was in pain for at least three weeks, but part of that was because I am so out of shape. But I think it would be fun to try it again. And for now, this is where I end my ramblings.


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Apr. 14th, 2005 11:30 pm (UTC)
I LOVE cats! That or a big dog! I HATE small dogs with a passion!!!
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