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Project: Move Lisa

Saturday, October 15th, I'm moving from my lovely, wonderful apartment that I really, really don't want to leave to Nancy's place in Bowie. I've been spending most of this month in denial that I'll be moving, and procrastinating as much as possible in terms of getting packing done, doing everything but what I'm actually supposed to be doing.

This weekend I tried to buckle down and get things packed, but it just didn't work. I managed, I think, a total of 6 boxes of things put away. In the grand scheme of things, that's really not that much. I have a ton of stuff, much of which is going into storage, but much that's still coming with me. Part of the problem was trying to figure out where to begin, and becoming somewhat stressed over the whole situation.

Nancy has been absolutely wonderful and doing everything that she can to make me feel welcome, and is trying to be very accomodating with my needs, providing internet service, making sure I have cable hook ups and what have you. She's even said that if I find that "special someone" that I can have them over, and that she and her husband will go upstairs to give us alone time, which is somewhat awkward, but really great of her. I'll have to keep that in mind when and if that time comes, if that opportunity ever comes again, and hopefully I won't be such a royal screw up when it does happen again.

The problem lies in the fact that I'll be going from a place that's totally my own without any expectations or anything about what I do here, to a place that currently houses 3 people. It's going to be an adjustment. I'm just not used to being around people in large quantities anymore. I used to live in a large household and I've been living alone for the last year.

The fact of the matter is I like having my independence. I know it's silly, but I have this fear, deep down, that somehow I'll lose that once I'm emersed with people again. I'm trying to be really positive about everything, and with how great Nancy has been some of my worry has subsided... but it still lingers there. Living there is a very good opportunity for me, and so I don't want to make a wreck of things once settled.

I'll just have to not stress so much at not having space that's all mine anymore. Things might be bumpy in the adjustment period, but they'll work out.

Status of Project: Move Lisa -- so far a dismal failure. Once I'm more packed I'll give a status.


Nynrose - Lisa Christie
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